Just heard from my mother, my grandpa dead last night. Ended up with 94 years old.

I don not how I feel now. It is hard to believe. I just talking with my friend about my grandpa several minutes ago. I could not image he was dead when I talkede about him. I never thought of that.

用英文表达不出感情。

 

最近在上网球课，刚教了正手，老师单独轮流辅导，剩下的时间就跟partner练习。我这两天迟到的老毛病又犯了，只好跟另外一个迟到的同学一组了。 老师让我们每个人要带两个can的球，可是这位同学从来不带球，你至于这么省吗，WALMART一个can也就两块钱不到，还是您特别忙，日理万机，上了两星期课了还是没有时间买个球？

 

没球就没球吧，用我的好了，可是因为球少，大家打的又都不怎么样，打没几分钟就要捡球，这位仁兄从来不捡球，所有的球都是我拣回来的。是，我胖，您苗条，我是不是该谢谢您提供给我个减肥机会阿？今后来又来了个白mm跟我们一组，他还是这样。靠，您是大爷阿，您是大爷我们给您捡球您是不是该付小费阿？一个大男人跟人打球，让两个MM满场找球，自己跟个菩萨一样一动不动，您还真好意思阿。更可恶的是，人家MM捡球还没回来，他就已经直接把球发过来了。您懂不懂得什么叫尊重阿。既然三个人一块玩，您是不是应该等大家都准备好了才开始呢？而且这位同学打球目的就是把所有球都打到对面场上去，妈的，打了这么久您还不懂规则阿，您还以为您在打羽毛球阿，还把球挑高？我要是会扣球看我不扣死你！！贱人！！

 

下课的时候老师让大家捡了球bring in,大家都把自己场上所有的球都捡了，然后按照INITIAL分还回去，这位同学呢，不忘把最后一个球打到我们这边，然后拍拍屁股，头也不回的滚了。想想也不奇怪，这种贱人还指望他怎么样？ 昨天我的球有两个找不到了，其他同学都帮着找球，唯独他好像没事的人一样看着。拜托，好歹你打的是我的球也，我的球丢了你也脱不了干系，我不要你赔，您是不是也应该至少做做样子找找呢？后来球找回来了一个，老师给了我一个。昨天就有点生气，今天看到他那幅死人样更是其不打一处来。妈的，要不是有白妞在，我早跟他吵起来了。

 

我承认我小气，小肚鸡肠，斤斤计较。 可是我就是看不惯这萎缩男的贱样！真他妈丢中国人的脸！！我也不指望您能GENTLEMAN了，至少您打球有点球品好不好？反正我打死也不要和他一组了，妈的，我宁可跟人家三个人一组。想想都恶心。

I randomly knew a guy last semester and hang out once. We met again unexpectly on my way to school several days ago.

 

He called me last night around 9:00, saying to go to Pub together. I refused as I was with someone else. Later yesterday, actually this morning at around 1:30AM, a girl called me and asked me whether I knew that guy and how I knew him and so on. She said she is his girlfriend and asked why his boyfriend had my phone number and why he called me. She said her boyfriend wanted to break up with her. I am so confused and angry at that moment, I said his friends and I just acquaintance and it is normal to have other girls' or guys' phone number. I asked her to ask her boyfriend directly but not me. I do not know what happen to them and it is nothing to do with me. Later that girl cried on the phone and said something but I could not hear clearly. The call lasted about 15 minutes. To be frankly, I scared very much.

 

She called me again this morning and apologize for the call last night. And said her boyfriend is kind of a playboy and asked me to take care. She said: "He just want to have fun and if you are going to have fun, you can go with him, but if you want to find someone to be stay with you, he will never be the one." I only said I have no interest with her boyfriend and accept her apology. I didn't know what else to say. 

 

I feel so sad for the girl. It is obviously that the girl loves her boyfriend so much although she knew he is a jerk. Why women is always the one who is going to be mad in a relationship? Why women is always the one who give more but hurt more in a relationship?

    

I went to Delphi Erie and Wabash Canal Park again yesterday.

The volunteer there still remember me and talk a lot about the updated news of the park to me. The most exited news is that they have a boat now, and Dan is the tour guide!!!

I took a ride, a very simple wooden boat-- Delphi Queen, motorized, cute. The total trip is about 20 minutes. Dan told me this boat was launched at late May. 

I am quite exited when I saw the boat, it just like a baby of our project. Now I can understand why the volunteers are so proud of themselves, so proud of the small mesume. I can feel my passion now:).   

You are a drug to me
I never ever thought it otherwise
And I love the lies you've told to me
While looking me directly in my eyes

This is not ecstasy, but it's better than cocaine.
and you know that I will miss you when you're gone
but I'm not equipped to play this game

You know your words
They don't mean anything to me
They only serve to fatten up the prey
And when it's time to take them to the slaughterhouse
you slice their throats, continue on your way

This is not jeopardy
and it's not your high school prom
and you know that I will miss you when you're gone
But I'm not equipped to be your mom

You are a drug to me
I never ever thought it otherwise
And I love the lies you've told to me
while looking me directly in my eyes

 

                            ----- Drug (Czars)

 

Are you a drug to me?

Tomorrow is the last day of May Semester.

I did nothing this month. What a shame.

Do not waste time anymore.